Today, I called the doctor for the first time. I know it’s silly, he/she is just a normal person, but I was nervous. Like tachycardic nervous. All I had to do was get more pain medication for my patient. None the less…..I stumbled over my words, turned about five shades of red, and could barely read my own handwriting. At least he was nice. I could hear his kids talking in the background. Doctors are people too. That doesn’t mean I’m going to be any less nervous the next time I have to call, but it brings me back to reality. Doctors are not God, though sometimes several may think they are, but bottom line, they are not God. They are people with kids, hobbies, and lives. In school a few of my instructors often were very negative about doctors. It planted a very negative seed in my mind and I think that’s why I’m so nervous around them. Which is mostly not true. I feel like at any moment my very presence may set them off and send them on a rampage. So, based on this….my new goal: Get over your doctor intimidation. They are people, real people that talk, and sometimes, just sometimes, laugh. That’s what I’m working on.
What are you working on?
3 comments:
My OB was a real person and I really liked that about him. Way to be aware of yourself! I am working on being more joyful in the day to day! These moments with my babies will not last forever (even if sometimes it seems that way). :)
Hey, you are not alone in the "doctor intimidation" battle...I have the same struggle with dentists! Even though I can't even remember having a bad experience working with one, I still have the ingrained fear of them from someone saying something bad about them in school. Glad you are reminding yourself the truth about it all! I am working on seeing change as a good thing. :)
I know what you mean about doctors being intimidating, I have to sit in on doctor's conferences to let them know how my patient's doing in OT, I just have to remind myself that I know my patients and I have something valuable to say...and thanks for the reminder that they aren't God, they're people too!. (I've enjoyed reading your blog Kelsy, miss you! good luck to you in MT!)
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